tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post3553637781817192779..comments2023-10-21T05:56:15.949-06:00Comments on Utah Savage: I'm Sick of MyselfUtah Savagehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comBlogger41125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-35011235202847767462009-02-17T15:46:00.000-07:002009-02-17T15:46:00.000-07:00Actually, you don't seem like an extroverted at AL...Actually, you don't seem like an extroverted at ALL. <BR/><BR/>You feel to me like a write, a little teasing, seeking stories from our reactions, and then feeling bad about manipulating your sweet readers? ;)<BR/><BR/>Anyways, you write well! I read all of your work as fiction. Whether it is your reality or not doesn't make a difference to me; I enjoy the words, pictures your paint and etc!Najhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17728668942925956610noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-20082314751324138672009-02-17T13:43:00.000-07:002009-02-17T13:43:00.000-07:00Being an introvert I agree with you Naj. I can se...Being an introvert I agree with you Naj. I can see that one might see me as an extrovert here, I am deeply introverted in my real life. So a public exhibitionist and a private introvert. I could take to reading again and stop the posts that cause me to feel the need to apologizes to someone for hurting their feelings. I'm a bit of a knee-jerk apologist. It's something to work on. I feel always in the wrong. Or flying high and not caring much about the consequences. A gentle balance would be nice for awhile.Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-30420694597669839332009-02-17T11:05:00.000-07:002009-02-17T11:05:00.000-07:00Utah,elaborating? well ... I think I somehow elabo...Utah,<BR/><BR/>elaborating? well ... I think I somehow elaborated 'elsewhere' that "honesty can be the shelter of cowardice" and that it serves to liberate one of guilt.<BR/><BR/>I don't find being repulsed by an odor, a physiognomy, a tactlessness shallow. I also don't find the expression of a disappointment shallow. But, I cannot find any depth in indulging in one's particular reaction to a particular circumstance, even if that indulgence might manifest itself as self-hatred. To me, apologizing or explaining one's shallowness seems like an attention seeking exercise.<BR/><BR/>And this is perhaps why I am inclined to think 'Cal' (the character or the real man) might be richer (in an intellectual way) than he CARES to reveal. I personally find introverts to be deep people!Najhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17728668942925956610noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-35023484368467125212009-02-16T23:54:00.000-07:002009-02-16T23:54:00.000-07:00Susan, there is a fine line between brave and care...Susan, there is a fine line between brave and careless. I blurt it all out and often have to apologize for offending someone or thinking I might. I live my life here. Out in the open like this was real life. It might seem courageous but it's the only way I can say what I want to say and still I self censor to keep from being cruel. It's only in fiction that the censor vanishes. Yet all my fiction is based in my reality. Yet I'm sure there isn't a character in my fiction who would think I deal with them fairly.<BR/><BR/>Husband number 3 was a terrific writer of short stories and all the years we were together he wrote about me. I hated the way he portrayed me. I would have called his portrayal of me dishonest. It was his truth.Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-76919430389772200762009-02-16T22:47:00.000-07:002009-02-16T22:47:00.000-07:00You are an extraordinary woman. As Socrates said, ...You are an extraordinary woman. As Socrates said, 'The unexamined life is not worth living'. I have examined mine but I'm not so brave as you.susanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16747450215034568033noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-46986662849164198682009-02-16T22:07:00.000-07:002009-02-16T22:07:00.000-07:00Susan, he is here. And I can protect him only so ...Susan, he is here. And I can protect him only so much. Since I now must write this story as the fairy tale and comedy of errors it is. How could I not. I will give Cal a different name, and change some details. But it will be the story I have told here only in greater detail.Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-45196249635601564312009-02-16T18:00:00.000-07:002009-02-16T18:00:00.000-07:00In the post where you said, 'Cal is here', I went ...In the post where you said, 'Cal is here', I went through your blog roll to see if I could find which one of your commenters he might possibly be. None of them fit the bill since all were far too sophisticated to be the somewhat sheltered and naive man you were describing. How, I wondered, could the refined woman I know as Utah Savage talk herself into a fantasy involving callow Cal? (nice hint there). She is urbane, cultured, refined, intelligent and ultimately, skeptical. What could the answer be but that she's written a brilliant fiction about how easily we can deceive ourselves ? <BR/><BR/>I was captivated. I also understand the need to decompress. Please take good care of yourself.susanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16747450215034568033noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-90636042968555702892009-02-16T12:57:00.000-07:002009-02-16T12:57:00.000-07:00Thank you Kathleen, that is exactly what I needed ...Thank you Kathleen, that is exactly what I needed to hear. You hate to disappoint your friends, but sometimes you just can't help it.Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-17526363258183180692009-02-16T12:50:00.000-07:002009-02-16T12:50:00.000-07:00I wrote a scenario too personal, and full of stere...<I>I wrote a scenario too personal, and full of stereotypes that really did alienate some of my male readers.</I><BR/><BR/>Well, yeah, that happens. No need to apologize. Think of all the men, many quite justly lauded among the pantheon of all-time great writers, who have won accolades for their stereotypes of women. <BR/><BR/>Not that two wrongs make a right: I'm not saying that. But when writing, give yourself a lot of leeway. And if your writing alienates some people? It means you're working the edge. <BR/><BR/>Creative work, for me and a few others I know, is always a marathon. Expect to feel exhausted and drained. After the race, be sure to drink plenty of fluids and rest as long as necessary. Because that next go-round is gonna be waiting for you the minute you feel as if you can raise your head.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12306491903311869968noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-71814996468080866012009-02-16T11:22:00.000-07:002009-02-16T11:22:00.000-07:00Dear Belette Rouge, I completely understand. And ...Dear Belette Rouge, I completely understand. And I empathize. You have so many fans who want your attention, I'm greatly honored you find time for me. Now, back away from the Captain Crunch. It's time to write some fiction.Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-78823359107806676142009-02-16T10:30:00.000-07:002009-02-16T10:30:00.000-07:00This post and your writing make me feel like I sho...This post and your writing make me feel like I should never take breaks from the blogosphere. <BR/><BR/>I do find that after creative periods I can feel a little empty and angst filled. I try to identify that as land lying fallow and try not get to freaked out about it. <BR/><BR/>As you know I had a hard week last week due to the rejection and I noticed that three times last week I forgot to take my Vitamin W and I wonder about the chicken/egg in that memory mishap. <BR/><BR/>Now, I have some catching up to do. I clearly have to read the post that could be offensive. That sounds like fun!;-)<BR/><BR/>Take good care of your sweet self.<BR/>xoxoLa Belette Rougehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05686717070120116918noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-724061239703875562009-02-16T10:25:00.000-07:002009-02-16T10:25:00.000-07:00Naj, you might be right, but would you mind elabor...Naj, you might be right, but would you mind elaborating?<BR/><BR/>Giggles, Pido, I hate to hear you refer to yourself as gullible. This makes it sound like you've been tricked and feel like the suspension of disbelief is a failing on your part.<BR/><BR/>I base all fiction on my life experiences or close observation of others. I don't have a crack team of researchers to tell me what it's like for a female climbing her way up the corporate ladder in a Fortune 500 Co, that's caught in the sleaze that brings her company down. This is a world I'll have to let other's tell. I tell my own stories, but even writing about my real life is only my fiction of my real life. I cannot be objective. So it's the view from my eyes. It's the longings of my heart and other bits that lead me to suspend my own good instincts and allow myself to miss all the clues that this man is not the right man for me and that rather than be angry with the man, I am angry with myself for missing what was so clearly there in the small comments we hear and don't absorb because we don't want to.Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-1046691870344577102009-02-16T09:28:00.000-07:002009-02-16T09:28:00.000-07:00You're right to be concerned because physical illn...You're right to be concerned because physical illness is common with bipolar because your immune system is so weakened. <BR/><BR/>You didn't offend me with what you wrote. I guess it's because I tried SO HARD not to be the shallow guy that when I'm reminded of it, it makes me wish that one-sided conception ends up being used so quickly in stereotype.Comrade Kevinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11393718048145784837noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-89496000723278386292009-02-16T08:36:00.000-07:002009-02-16T08:36:00.000-07:00Oooooooooooooops.... My previous post posted befor...Oooooooooooooops.... My previous post posted before I got a chance to proofread...forgive the typos....<BR/><BR/>And PS... Thanks for following me.... although I will never be able to fill your shoes or meet your expectations....giggleshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13173558660571799919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-50966856916904369542009-02-16T08:21:00.000-07:002009-02-16T08:21:00.000-07:00Well, dear.... I am gullible (Capitol "G" is embl...Well, dear.... I am gullible (Capitol "G" is emblazened on my forwhead....there...can you see it?!) Ansd I admitted to Pido, when he was feeling down for not getting the fiction of your story, that I bought the whole thing....hook, line and sinker.... <BR/>Rather than all of readers being hard on ourselves for being so dumb, I would rather support your great writing skills! ....It was compelling reading.... You got us all rooting for your two heroes....believing you all the way....good shit!giggleshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13173558660571799919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-30620829064509936632009-02-16T08:15:00.000-07:002009-02-16T08:15:00.000-07:00This is really good stuff- really good indeed. I ...This is really good stuff- really good indeed. I was hooked, in for the long haul, still am.<BR/><BR/>And as far as men being stimulated more than women by the 'visual? Hah!!<BR/><BR/>I am SO visual, so much so that I require details of what I can't see that he is seeing - use your imagination on that one!! :-)<BR/><BR/>Keep on keeping on....<BR/><BR/>Love Gail<BR/>peace.....Gailhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11337675996256691215noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-26064992675459150052009-02-16T07:58:00.000-07:002009-02-16T07:58:00.000-07:00lolFor Christ's sake my friend, do you not think t...lol<BR/><BR/>For Christ's sake my friend, do you not think that this very post itself is a bit shallow? <BR/><BR/>;)Najhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17728668942925956610noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-84348637986641960792009-02-16T07:19:00.001-07:002009-02-16T07:19:00.001-07:00Phillip NOT Phillips! :)Phillip NOT Phillips! :)Linda-Samahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07664989345039365084noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-54319633633451427652009-02-16T07:19:00.000-07:002009-02-16T07:19:00.000-07:00agree with suzi riot -- sis, ya gotta read a book ...agree with suzi riot -- sis, ya gotta read a book by one of my teachers, Phillips Moffitt, called Dancing With Life....get it!Linda-Samahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07664989345039365084noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-52906232484682090412009-02-16T06:55:00.000-07:002009-02-16T06:55:00.000-07:00I think that the only great thing I would have mis...I think that the only great thing I would have missed out on if I had no siblings would be my nieces and nephews. Who, with the exception of 1 or two .. I love very much. <BR/>It might have something to do with that fact that my brother and sisters are quite a bit older than I. We might have more of a parent/child relationship. <BR/>I'm actually closer to my husbands family than I am my own.<BR/>:)<BR/>LauraLaurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09226811839348899360noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-46601882538952339252009-02-16T06:50:00.000-07:002009-02-16T06:50:00.000-07:00i think you did some great writting and very belie...i think you did some great writting and very believable so that is a great talent.<BR/><BR/>get better soon. it's hard at time to figure out if it's a bout of depression or a bug coming on.Sherry Pasquarellohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06107407102753464356noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-78110054209753516222009-02-16T05:33:00.000-07:002009-02-16T05:33:00.000-07:00Hope you feel better soon...like today!As for male...Hope you feel better soon...like today!<BR/><BR/>As for males being more stimulated visually than females...that is such a crock of sheep shit. It's not gender based damn it!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06698117410778232102noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-28991140364103391002009-02-15T22:06:00.000-07:002009-02-15T22:06:00.000-07:00Suzi that's the best advise of the day. Thank you...Suzi that's the best advise of the day. Thank you for the good idea. I'm going to bed. I have already taken my meds. I'm so glad to hear your strong voice ordering me around. Yes, Dear. I will indeed obey you.Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-3709300887630394012009-02-15T22:01:00.000-07:002009-02-15T22:01:00.000-07:00While I think honest self reflection and self crit...While I think honest self reflection and self criticism are important, there is such a thing as being too hard on oneself. You do some pretty cool stuff on this blog and I think your writing is fearless. Take your meds and take care of yourself... the rest of it can wait. :)Suzi Riothttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02869448922051303723noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-11863884531203682992009-02-15T21:50:00.000-07:002009-02-15T21:50:00.000-07:00Who's offended by an unhappy ending?;>)Get ...Who's offended by an unhappy ending?<BR/><BR/>;>)<BR/><BR/>Get well soon.darkblackhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06584075324283109495noreply@blogger.com