tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post7957638087647636649..comments2023-10-21T05:56:15.949-06:00Comments on Utah Savage: Death Turns Us All To TrashUtah Savagehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-4164127781662586632008-05-12T23:02:00.000-06:002008-05-12T23:02:00.000-06:00You write about such ugliness so beautifully, UT. ...You write about such ugliness so beautifully, UT. What a horrifying story about your cousin, too. God, humans piss me off.Blankhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10159463105401061130noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-86967810609064246932008-05-12T05:27:00.000-06:002008-05-12T05:27:00.000-06:00Tragic and horrible, what happened to you as a you...Tragic and horrible, what happened to you as a young girl. It's a testament to your strength that you're here now and can write about this. This is only my second visit here, and I am near-overwhelmed. I wish I had read this post before the one following, about you and guns. I feel compelled to comment, but when confronted with someone bluntly and honestly talking about some personal pain, anything I could say in response seems inadequate.Joehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09747874295331152779noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-48309544568611315492008-05-11T18:28:00.000-06:002008-05-11T18:28:00.000-06:00Utah to learn about how to prepare your manuscript...Utah to learn about how to prepare your manuscripts, start with The American Psychological Association (APA) 5th edition Publication Manual. You can buy them all day used on Amazon.com. Just make sure you get the 5th edtion.Kentucky Rainhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16753739401363847764noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-24085577772018177002008-05-11T13:31:00.000-06:002008-05-11T13:31:00.000-06:00When I refer to publishing I was speaking of posti...When I refer to publishing I was speaking of posting them on my blog. I have several in my archives that were specifically about my parents but there are some that I have chosen to keep personal until a later date because I don't want to hurt anyone else that doesn't have it coming. However, there is no mercy for the ones that chose to take my parent's side in this royal cluster fuck of dysfunction.<BR/><BR/>Speaking of getting your writings published, I am not the person that you need to talk to. It remains a mystery to me about what the hell those publishers really are looking for so I just write whatever I feel like.Sculptor Dudehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00846808293951773326noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-79339912656362109762008-05-11T12:09:00.000-06:002008-05-11T12:09:00.000-06:00How anyone who has had to put up with that shit wh...How anyone who has had to put up with that shit while young and live to tell the tale has some sack, and I mean that in the best possibly way.<BR/><BR/>When I croak, they can chop me up. I'm dead, I won't care. Science, baby.Randal Graveshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08728992897551848531noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-40348275155490921482008-05-11T01:26:00.000-06:002008-05-11T01:26:00.000-06:00I wasn't always, but am now a big believer in tell...I wasn't always, but am now a big believer in telling family "secrets", or at least asking questions, especially if it helps you or some other family member come to grips with something, or might prevent some future abuse. I see your father really played the powertrip game on you when you finally confronted him. Acting like a 7-yr old could've ever really, what, given consent? I'm not sure exactly what he was implying, but he was dead wrong. Well, you eventually figured that out, I'm sure.<BR/><BR/>As far as death, I've never considered body donation. I chose cremation, and my will states if a monument should be desired by anyone in the family, it should read "DEAD AND THAT's THAT!". I am an Ashes to Ashes kind of person.D.K. Raedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01451065603615752038noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-41682086560382487912008-05-10T23:15:00.000-06:002008-05-10T23:15:00.000-06:00"Whipping up a meal out of the funeral leftovers."..."Whipping up a meal out of the funeral leftovers."<BR/><BR/>That is some telling statement.<BR/><BR/>I'm sorry about your story, as well as your cousin's. It broke my heart. Mostly because all I can do is sit here and read the words. And also because these stories are far too common.<BR/><BR/>Sometimes I just hate it that I'm a human.cathouse terihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02547258612468286876noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-38348864120142201582008-05-10T21:33:00.000-06:002008-05-10T21:33:00.000-06:00I re-read this ....I did not know what to say the ...I re-read this ....I did not know what to say the first time- I wanted to think about it....We all have "Pasts"....it is so amazing that you can write about it with humor, insight and some perspective...I am so sorry about all that you have been through...it is always amazing how dysfunction in a family has a domino quality....<BR/><BR/>I may seem sweet...but I am also a believer that we all write and share and blog to keep pieces of our Humanity intact...so I appreciate all writing...<BR/><BR/>keep writing...enigma4everhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06589997090173140019noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-62253107446890865462008-05-10T21:13:00.000-06:002008-05-10T21:13:00.000-06:00Anita, it is what all my "fiction" is about. Not ...Anita, it is what all my "fiction" is about. Not just the events that went on daily for all of five years, but the aftermath that just got worse with time. It is called PTSD. I know we only think of that with shell shocked soldiers, but there are plenty of shell shocked kids with PTSD. Then the bipolar disorder which started in my late teens. And that I looked a bit like Audrey Hepburn, and modeled actually added to the problems. And I was smart and pissed- off and couldn't talk about it to anyone.Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-16902627586656663392008-05-10T20:36:00.000-06:002008-05-10T20:36:00.000-06:00I had a few "minor" issues with my sister when my ...I had a few "minor" issues with my sister when my mom died. I didn't react deeply enough to her passing for my sister and she confronted me on it. She is the youngest and missed most of my mom's antics just because she was too young to realize what was going on. My mom also had a habit of smacking me around every now and then when her demons were dancing in her head. I miss her but as I wrote several times I made my peace with her actions and choices long ago. <BR/>Her actions in no way compares to what you went through. I just can't imagine the fear you went through.<BR/>As for my body after I hit the celestial trail, I will be cremated and have my ashes spread in the marsh around Pawleys Island. But I intend to hang around at least until I can go on a lunar vacation.Commander Zaiushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11000824454124236774noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-71185192420559197992008-05-10T19:26:00.000-06:002008-05-10T19:26:00.000-06:00I hate my father for so many things. But one thin...I hate my father for so many things. But one thing I can say is that he was never abusive (in that way) to me or my sisters or my brother. I can't imagine what kind of shape I'd be in right now if that were the case. What a horrible memory that must be.<BR/><BR/>I think you are very brave in being so open about it. I imagine you have held it in for a long, long time.anitahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11950712894174167863noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-85064911012165921112008-05-10T18:58:00.000-06:002008-05-10T18:58:00.000-06:00I took a walk around the worldTo ease my troubled ...I took a walk around the world<BR/>To ease my troubled mind<BR/>I left my body laying somewhere<BR/>In the sands of time........<BR/><BR/><A HREF="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q233CxlIZtk" REL="nofollow">link</A><BR/><BR/>now where did i leave that body?Ghost Dansinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15216056025402469120noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-43393755518792648132008-05-10T18:43:00.000-06:002008-05-10T18:43:00.000-06:00Dear Ms Formerly, I have started refering to you a...Dear Ms Formerly, I have started refering to you as the blogger who had a breast reduction, since i still think of you as Dcup. You know how it goes, sometimes it is your friends beauty who first attracts you to them--well, I saw your comments and Dcup and then I followed you home to politits and I was instantly hooked on Ms. Tits. There is nothing wrong with being called dcup. We all love big breasted women. Especially those of us who are big breasted women. Did you outgrow it? Maybe DDcup? Just don't go away!Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-75360551046120946962008-05-10T18:36:00.000-06:002008-05-10T18:36:00.000-06:00Enigma, you seem too sweet to like the table I set...Enigma, you seem too sweet to like the table I set, but your comments make me look ever so lovely. Same with Scarlet. Where is she?Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-42463911526697787232008-05-10T18:34:00.000-06:002008-05-10T18:34:00.000-06:00I must say, you are a brave bunch. Even though I ...I must say, you are a brave bunch. Even though I know Vigilante was only here to pimp his own site, still I do love to see he starts the day the right way. <BR/><BR/>Freida, I hope that wasn't a to hard a use of your sandwiched time. I have really thought out this whole death thing and plan to keep writing about it. I was shocked to find out that in order to have the lovely obituary I wrote about her (solely to please her political and feminist friends) printed in the only Salt Lake Paper she'd have ever read, cost over $300. I gagged on every word, but did manage to write a medium sized obit. she would have been proud of. And there was no use of the word, "beloved", "departed" No no. She died, finally. "Ding dong the witch is dead!" I did mention that she was survive by her only child. But other than that I was all about her and her many degrees, honors, prizes, mentoring, political ties and connections. "Ding Dong, the Witch is dead!"Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-17156972805960238622008-05-10T16:30:00.000-06:002008-05-10T16:30:00.000-06:00Care to share, goodnevilguy before you publish? A...Care to share, goodnevilguy before you publish? And as the that publishing thingy, care to share the knowhow on that one? I've got a 600+ page book all finished and ready to go. I'm doling it out chapter by chapter in the full profile part of my blog. it's called "Maggy."Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-12879028213760480642008-05-10T16:04:00.000-06:002008-05-10T16:04:00.000-06:00My mom and dad would have had an absolute fucking ...My mom and dad would have had an absolute fucking fit if they knew the stories that I have written about the insane world that they created and forcefully made me endure for so many years. I told my wife that I wanted to write about as much of it as possible so at least I know that I did my part to jerk their damn skeletons out of their little insane closet for anyone to see that wanted to and refused to admit existed ... even when they were lying on their deathbeds.<BR/><BR/>And just like your dad, they acted like they had done nothing wrong and mine would even go so far as to tell my friends how mean I was treating them by not coming to see them or for not bringing my son over to see them. So then I would end up looking like the bad son. Eventually, I had to break contact with them just for my own mental health. Later, after they had died, I began writing about those events. Some I published, some not yet. But I will because I want to get the last laugh this time.Sculptor Dudehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00846808293951773326noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-45350246429844909922008-05-10T15:30:00.000-06:002008-05-10T15:30:00.000-06:00hey there, I have seen you over at Redheaded Wisdo...hey there, I have seen you over at Redheaded Wisdom- and I would love to add you to my blogroll- if that is okay with you....<BR/><BR/>( I love your blog)enigma4everhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06589997090173140019noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-50062877190323710222008-05-10T14:46:00.000-06:002008-05-10T14:46:00.000-06:00Amen to that brother Mike!Amen to that brother Mike!Utah Savagehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16385093247915560752noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-34799574025085809242008-05-10T14:21:00.000-06:002008-05-10T14:21:00.000-06:00Two kids, at the beginning of life's road, kill th...Two kids, at the beginning of life's road, kill themselves over the parental pressure brought about by that religious bullshit. Catholics and Jews; Jews and Catholics. Once again the insanity of Jesus and Abraham is responsible for the death of two innocents. Fuck God.Kentucky Rainhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16753739401363847764noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-66397663077608339532008-05-10T13:38:00.000-06:002008-05-10T13:38:00.000-06:00Utah - What happened to you as a child is heartbre...Utah - What happened to you as a child is heartbreaking. You write beautifully about your experiences, even thought the revelations can be gut-wrenching to read.<BR/><BR/>I hope you're doing better.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-39596114122422487582008-05-10T13:13:00.000-06:002008-05-10T13:13:00.000-06:00I didn't have time to read that, but I started and...I didn't have time to read that, but I started and I got sucked in and read every last word. Compelling. It's a very good idea. (No, not the hefty bag.)Freida Beehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11489663202315694313noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5954604416278665691.post-70996712770597051172008-05-10T12:49:00.000-06:002008-05-10T12:49:00.000-06:00This comment has been removed by the author.Vigilantehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07640246609540057997noreply@blogger.com