Monday, July 6, 2009

Now This is A' Cappella



Thanks for sending this to me Scott. The first few seconds and tears start flowing. The opening is is a very moving sound. It makes me feel human again.

I'm starting to unravel. But I have an emergency therapy appointment tomorrow morning with my very generous therapist Fred who has given me his cell phone number in case I really need to talk and there is no one who can understand this pain, this fear, this rage. Thank you Fred.

Thanks to all of you who have looked in on me and left a kind word.

Anita, I'm sorry I disappointed you. You may have thought I was actually a better person than I am. I wish I had lived up to your expectation of me. But I'm just one very imperfect and frightened old woman. Please forgive me.

13 comments:

Cat said...

Sending good thougths your way.
(hugs)

Gail said...

Hi Utah-

Fred sounds like a good gy. And you are smart to have called him to sort through the unraveling.

I love the video - love,love,love it.

Gail
peace........

PENolan said...

Three Cheers for Fred.

The idea that you're a disappointment seems to be stuck in the racing thoughts of a bi-polar squirrel cage. Just remember: If it's not one thing it's your mother.

Utah Savage said...

PENolan, you must have nail that because the moment I read it I recognized it as the TRUTH! And that started me sobbing. Thanks, I needed that. How right you are.

anita said...
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Beach Bum said...

I'm just one very imperfect and frightened old woman.

That just makes you human. Its a sad condition over six billion other people are afflicted with. We do what we can.

PENolan said...

Anytime, Girl.
It takes one to know one ;)

Steve said...

as always you're in my thoughts!
great video (and I even figured out they were doing rain before the started the song!)

Suzi Riot said...

Love the video!

Feel better and take care of yourself... it sounds like you are doing what you need to for yourself, which is good to hear. :)

susan said...

peace and love..

Utah Savage said...

God Suzi, I've missed you. I'm not getting out much at the moment to visit. thanks so much for dropping in.

Cat, Gail, Beach, Steve, Susan, I think it's all of you who keep me safe--It's your kindness and generosity to put up with the same wail day after day. I hope you don't feel taken for granted by my absence as a reader, commenter, friend.

thelass said...

Hang in there, Utah. There is a way out of the darkness.

giggles said...

You and Z continue to be in my thoughts..... I hope you are able to hang in there... Love the truth of the poem and the music ... Wonderful.......